FINISHED! And there you have it. Two altogether exhilarating words for anyone who has ever poured months, years, lifetimes into writing a book. Despite multiple drafts, rewrites, painful edits, etc … etc, there comes a day … Continue reading
“These are not books, lumps of lifeless paper, but MINDS alive on the shelves”
Gilbert Highet 1906-1978
Teacher & Scholar
I am not familiar with Gilbert Highet, but his words are immortalized on a bronze plaque outside the public library in Baltimore Maryland. I’ve read and reread this single line inasmuch as it speaks volumes to my writers heart, particularly when I am struggling to compose that perfect sentence or Frankenstein design the endearing or imperfect character persistently struggling to stear me into their story. Despite all there years of writing, the actual process is something I find impossible to explain let alone understand. Somehow, to say that it “just happens” comes across as something of an insincere cop-out, and yet that’s pretty much the truth as it applies to my own experience with words.
Which isn’t to say that it’s easy.
never happens that a perfect chorus of words will tango across the page with the poise and grace of a winning contestant on Dancing with the Stars. Yet just as often, it’s a matter of strapping on a headlamp and heading in to excavate the treasure that’s right over there behind that mammoth pile of boulders. And you keep at it with heart and diligence, until all at once–total darkness–the vivid path of illumination unceremoniously extinguished when the bulb burns out.
FORK IN THE ROAD
Even then you can’t allow yourself to cave to temporary obstacles or turn-tail from the illusion of a bottomless crevasse. Okay, so take a moment to hoist the white flag and head to the kitchen for a medicinal slice of conciliatory pie (although you’ve been writing not baking, so it’s likely there is no pie.), but only a moment. You’ve learned the essential importance of holding on by now. Your creative mind hasn’t taken a powder, left the building, or fallen into something scary and bottomless. You know that if you stay in your chair, even if only to doodle in the margins, the tiniest speck of an idea will spark and then somehow–whether consciously fueled or not–will quaver and persistently swell to rekindle the fire. And I am never anything less than awed and amazed when the dust of creativity finally settles and a finished manuscript rests in my hands. Not that I understand how it works. I just know it does, not easily, but it does.
THE END (NOT!)
It takes me at least a year
forever to finish the first draft of a novel– not a 700 page Stephen King size tome, but compositions half their size, between 350-375 pages. Then comes the editing–another year of rewriting, rewriting, disgust, agony, despair…and only then does it begin to look like something connected to the vision that first caught my attentions. I marvel over writers who produce a masterpiece in the space of a few months–or incredibly, weeks. How that works I can’t imagine. I can only assume it”s because my mind is set at 33 where others are steady at 78.
Still, I’ve come to accept
bemoan my slower pace as necessary for me. I am after all an obsessive compulsive editing machine. I hack, slash, and burn until I can see the words coming to life and feel my characters breathing on the page, and for me that takes some time. The reward for my efforts, a cross-my-fingers-confidence that my work is pruned, polished and ready to stand right up there in the shadow of the big boys.
Except when it’s not. And editing resumes. Because it is my mind after all–quiet, hopeful, earnest–there on the shelf. My story. My characters. My truth. Me.
I’ve always had something of a problem with the adage that so often accompanies rejection or bad reviews. I assume it’s intended to soften the blow: “It’s not you that being rejected or disliked
torn asunder by the roots, just your writing.” Agree? Can/do you separate your personal self from your words?